Is Not What I Expected

Yesterday, NDP training, didn't expected last week they did the selections. Freaking never see my letter for last week and just thrown it behind the file. I freaking pissed with that, at least they should see it so they know why. Now, i'm not in but i'm fopr resever. Don't you think is so unfair?! My grandpa dead last week, i can't of course go for NDP right?! My freaking effort i put in is like gone to a waste. And i gave my time in for it. And i will even miss my own award day just for it. What's this now?! My work is nothing but just fly away?! Fuck this up! But i'm gonna go till i get my seat back no matter what happen. I don't care, i not going to let my hard work just fly like this. There's still chance and hopes for me, i guess.